Yesterday, I talked a little about the effect of a Jupiter/Uranus flash of insight. I can be overly passionate (Jupiter) about my great idea for that moment in time (Uranus).
But we're all wobbling these days, all around the world. More personally though, my Libra and Pisces placements can be extremely indecisive. Additionally, Saturn is reaching new territory in my chart, a place he hasn't been since I was an infant, my 6th house. I have to get serious (Saturn) about my work (6th house). Meaning, I need to put in the effort if I want to reap any rewards from this transit. Recently, Saturn returned to his natal position in my chart and all those feelings that come along with turning 30 have come rushing to the forefront of my consciousness.
"I just got married! Why don't I have a baby yet? What am I doing with my career? Why aren't I as successful as I imagined? etc etc etc"
The idea of becoming an art teacher excites me, but so do a million other ideas that I have about what I want to do when I grow up...which is about two months from now when I turn 30. This is where the issues in my chart become blatantly clear while the transits are forcing me to make some decisions about my life. I wish I could shut off the analyzing part of my brain and turn on the act now button.
We shall just wait and see, but for now, the house needs cleaning.
Showing posts with label Uranus Jupiter conjunction. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Uranus Jupiter conjunction. Show all posts
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
Jupiter Uranus insight
Yesterday, while sitting at my desk at work, I was distracted by the internet in between entering invoices. I saw something, a career I had attempted to pursue previously on one of the websites I was clicking between. It happened so quickly, that I cannot recall the website or what I was reading when I saw the career description. I was suddenly remembering all the times that I have attempted to pursue that career and all the times that I have not followed through.
When I was 21 I decided I should go back to school and finish my bachelors degree after a three year hiatus. I decided I wanted to do art. I applied to two schools and was accepted to both. Due to financial circumstances, I chose the less expensive school.
I originally chose my major as art education. I believe this is a practical use of my creativity. As a Pisces Venus, I love art and enjoy creating. But my Taurus ascendant is not comfortable with the idea of a starving artist. Being able to still create and teach others to enjoy this process really appealed to me. But a year into the program, I didn't feel like I was being allowed enough art classes, so I changed my major to fine art.
Then another year later, I went through a relationship issue and transferred schools. This last school was completely different than any I previously attended. This was a progressive school, without grades or lesson plans. It's called self-directed learning. I really loved what I did in my final two years there, a combination of art, writing, poetry, psychology and quantum physics. Unfortunately, in the real world of certification and requirements, my hippy personalized degree isn't getting me anywhere professionally.
I graduated and thought I might like to go to graduate school, but all three turned me down. Then I briefly attempted to figure out how I might get back into art education, and somewhere along the line I just gave up.
I became complacent, fearful. Of what, I don't know. I stand in my own way sometimes.
But when I sat there and saw "art educator"...a Uranian light bulb went off in my head. I still can't remember where I saw those words, and now I almost feel like I may have imagined them, which is all the better I think.
I am still fearful. But I don't want to be. I want to really put in some effort this time. After all, third time's the charm, right?
When I was 21 I decided I should go back to school and finish my bachelors degree after a three year hiatus. I decided I wanted to do art. I applied to two schools and was accepted to both. Due to financial circumstances, I chose the less expensive school.
I originally chose my major as art education. I believe this is a practical use of my creativity. As a Pisces Venus, I love art and enjoy creating. But my Taurus ascendant is not comfortable with the idea of a starving artist. Being able to still create and teach others to enjoy this process really appealed to me. But a year into the program, I didn't feel like I was being allowed enough art classes, so I changed my major to fine art.
Then another year later, I went through a relationship issue and transferred schools. This last school was completely different than any I previously attended. This was a progressive school, without grades or lesson plans. It's called self-directed learning. I really loved what I did in my final two years there, a combination of art, writing, poetry, psychology and quantum physics. Unfortunately, in the real world of certification and requirements, my hippy personalized degree isn't getting me anywhere professionally.
I graduated and thought I might like to go to graduate school, but all three turned me down. Then I briefly attempted to figure out how I might get back into art education, and somewhere along the line I just gave up.
I became complacent, fearful. Of what, I don't know. I stand in my own way sometimes.
But when I sat there and saw "art educator"...a Uranian light bulb went off in my head. I still can't remember where I saw those words, and now I almost feel like I may have imagined them, which is all the better I think.
I am still fearful. But I don't want to be. I want to really put in some effort this time. After all, third time's the charm, right?
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