Saturday, November 20, 2010

Dear Lonely Blog

It's been awhile. I know. I'm not very consistent, I admit that. But what can I do? Really?

I might do some art today, I don't know. Husband is at work, I drank too much last night and I'm sitting on the couch in silence. It's a bit ridiculous. Down down downward spiral I've been in. My friend told me that some people go through a sort of post-wedding depression because the bride isn't planning anything anymore. I don't think that's the case. I think it's all a big blur really. Even if there is an inkling of sadness because I'm not planning a wedding anymore, most of my sadness is due a couple people that are missing on this planet.

I think that's why I don't write much anymore. Whatever I have to say is fucking depressing.

I'm going to stop moping this morning, drink my coffee, and do something with myself. Maybe next time I'll have something more interesting to talk about.


  1. if it makes you feel better, you can write a post and keep it hidden to viewers, like a journal. if it's writing you want to do, of course. if you don't, that's ok. it's all about you:)

    love love love you,little squish xo

  2. love and squishes you! xo

    i may write some privately, but it also feels good to get it out some days and have a little feedback or acknowledgement. I have a journal, that I bought specifically for the more private stuff, but I really barely use that as well. Writing for myself isn't the same as it used to be. Maybe it's something about needing to be heard I guess...:)