It's been awhile. I know. I'm not very consistent, I admit that. But what can I do? Really?
I might do some art today, I don't know. Husband is at work, I drank too much last night and I'm sitting on the couch in silence. It's a bit ridiculous. Down down downward spiral I've been in. My friend told me that some people go through a sort of post-wedding depression because the bride isn't planning anything anymore. I don't think that's the case. I think it's all a big blur really. Even if there is an inkling of sadness because I'm not planning a wedding anymore, most of my sadness is due a couple people that are missing on this planet.
I think that's why I don't write much anymore. Whatever I have to say is fucking depressing.
I'm going to stop moping this morning, drink my coffee, and do something with myself. Maybe next time I'll have something more interesting to talk about.